Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Giving of Thanks Day!!!

It's 1:00 in the morning right now, I'm sitting on our couch in the family room, next to my dear hubby and one of my three dogs, and I couldn't be happier. I'm so thankful for my husband, my family and my loving friends who are so precious to me.

I hope that anyone who reads this has/had a wonderful day of giving thanks. We have so much to be thankful for. And for some reason, I am compelled to recall the most simple and precious of gifts. What are yours?

God Bless,
Penny Sue

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

So much to do in so little time...

I've got about 15 days to get my house in order. I'll be having company & family here from the day after Thanksgiving until the 2nd weekend in December. My house is a disaster. It's been months since I've done a good job cleaning. I'm embarrassed to say that ever since my cancer and the flood that hit us... I almost just don't care. Plus, my husband can undo hours of housecleaning in a matter of minutes. Please pray for my motivation and self esteem. I have been struggling for almost 1 and 1/2 years with a lot of emotional and mental issues. My brain tells me what I should do... and my heart and body just don't want to follow through.

Aside from all of the above, I would really like to be able to spend some time in my shop and get it ready to re-open. This has also been a point of certain depression for me. I have some fresh new ideas for what direction I want to take the business, but the actual going out there, standing and looking at how much work it will take to reopen my doors just overwhelmes me.

I know in my head that there are so many other people who would truly love to trade places with me... or tell me that I should be so thankful that I survived cancer. I am thankful to my Heavenly Father for my restored health and body, but I think my mind got left behind. Surviving cancer has it's mental and emotional ramifications too. I guess I just need to "Snap Out Of It"... as Mary Emmerling so fondly says.

Penny Sue

PS - Nov. 20th - OOPS! I got my Mary's mixed up. I meant Mary Englebreit (SP?), not Emmerling.

Monday, November 10, 2008

It's Monday-Saturday

Monday-Saturday means the day is really a Monday, but as far as my hubs' weekend goes, it's really a Saturday.

We did a lot of gallivanting. McDonalds so hubs could grab a bite to eat. To the wrong Advanced Auto Zone. Figured out which one we were supposed to go to. To Home Depot. To Lowe's. To Barnes and Noble (I found my Romantic Homes magazine). I really need to get my subscriptions renewed. I also want to subscribe to Romantic Country. Anyhow... went back to Home Depot. Walmart for a 2009 calendar appointment book. Maines Source (A discounted food store). The drugstore.. and finally home. I'm just pooped out from running around all day. Oh yes, and I bought a 2nd magazine at Barnes and Noble published in Dublin, Ireland just titled "Ireland". I look forward to reading that before I go to bed this evening. One of the feature articles (as well as the front cover photo) is Frank McCourt. He is the author of Angela's Ashes and 'Tis. I gather he has authored another novel. I really enjoyed Angela's Ashes... I read most of 'Tis... but didn't finish it... only because I've misplaced the book. It's somewhere in this house. We have so many books packed away in boxes. I'm sure it's in one of those. Those boxes full of books are waiting for a library to be created on the 1st floor of our house. I really look forward to this project.

I'm tired. I'm gonna close now. It's been a busy day spending money. (Smile.)

It was also a very good day to spend with my husband. It's been a long time since we've just spent a day together doing nothing in particular. He's been so busy working on so many things around the house, our relationship has been put on hold for a little while. But, the Lord is good... and helps us to love each other well during the not so romantic times. I am truly blessed with this man.


Friday, November 7, 2008

It's Friday... and I'm ok..

Today my dear husband finally went to work. He should have gone back to work on Wednesday morning, but he called in sick two days this week. I hope he does well. Usually he calls me around 9:30 at night after he's done with work to chat. He was supposed to call, but he didn't. I just checked my cordless phone and the battery is drained. He probably tried to call but it didn't ring here in the house.

I'll be going in to work at 8 am tomorrow. I'm tired. It's been a weird day.

I'll chat later.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

It's a good thing there aren't more than 24 hours in a day...

Before I get going.... what happened to "Simply Dandy"? I've tried for two days and have gotten error messages that her blog has been deleted? What happened? I'm so sad. I was so encouraged by her sharing of her faith in such a public format... and enjoyed sharing comments back and forth over the last couple of months.

I must say that if there were more than 24 hours in a day, I would just crawl in a hole and die. I'm so thankful that the Lord just gave us 24, because otherwise we would just cram more "stuff" to do and feel the pressure of not getting it done. Most of us sleep 6-8 hours a night (maybe)... and then the rest of the time, run like a hamster that runs and runs and runs on those silly little wheels in its cage. Spinning and spinning and going nowhere.

When I had cancer, I learned a very valuable lesson. Actually, I learned a ton of valuable lessons. But one of them was how important it was to take time to have just for myself. It's not something I get to do every day, but there are some times I will have a quiet morning where I'll make a nice pot of percolator coffee, snuggle with my girls (3 dogs) on the couch, and just read my Bible. And then I just relax and rethink about what I read. I love it. After I've spent time reading my Bible and praying... I like to look through some of my reading material. I have so many things to read at my fingertips. I've tons of magazines. I have a wealth of books in my library to read... many of which are Christian based books.

OK... so the hubs has gotten heat out to the shop. Basically what he did was to run heat to my shop so that our wood boiler that heats the house will also heat my shop. I'm so excited. I'm going to call a lady from our church family who owns a cleaning business. She is very successful in what she does. I would like to get a quote for how much it would cost for having my business building cleaned. Top to bottom, windows included. If it's reasonable... I just might go ahead and have someone else clean up the spiders and cobwebs and dust and dirt. It's been closed for almost one complete year. If it's not reasonable, then... well, I guess I'll have to do it myself. But I've got so much else going on, I don't really want to do this too.

Well, I've rambled on again. I wish there were things I could find to take pictures of. Some of the other blogs look so beautiful, and I have no idea how to get mine to look so pretty. I guess their blogs are probably customized.

Hugs to all,
Penny Sue

Sunday, November 2, 2008

And then it was Sunday night...

Well, it's late (11:00 pm) on Sunday night. I've had a really crappy week. I don't really want to get into details other than I'm not doing well this week. November 1st was the 10 year anniversary of my Mom passing away. I didn't do well that day. But, as they say, life goes on.

Today was Sunday. I wanted to go to church today. But, I was so tired and worn down over my week, I actually spent most of my day resting... sleeping... in bed... or wherever felt comfortable. There is a comment I remember someone saying while I was going through my chemo and radiation about your energy level. I said I can't wait to get my energy back... and she looked at me and said "Honey, you never get that back." Truly... she meant about not to the fullest before you battled with the cancer. I spend a lot of time being tired. For no apparent reason... and most of the time I just assume it's from the treatment I had. I'm tired. I'm gonna go.

Just me