I've got about 15 days to get my house in order. I'll be having company & family here from the day after Thanksgiving until the 2nd weekend in December. My house is a disaster. It's been months since I've done a good job cleaning. I'm embarrassed to say that ever since my cancer and the flood that hit us... I almost just don't care. Plus, my husband can undo hours of housecleaning in a matter of minutes. Please pray for my motivation and self esteem. I have been struggling for almost 1 and 1/2 years with a lot of emotional and mental issues. My brain tells me what I should do... and my heart and body just don't want to follow through.
Aside from all of the above, I would really like to be able to spend some time in my shop and get it ready to re-open. This has also been a point of certain depression for me. I have some fresh new ideas for what direction I want to take the business, but the actual going out there, standing and looking at how much work it will take to reopen my doors just overwhelmes me.
I know in my head that there are so many other people who would truly love to trade places with me... or tell me that I should be so thankful that I survived cancer. I am thankful to my Heavenly Father for my restored health and body, but I think my mind got left behind. Surviving cancer has it's mental and emotional ramifications too. I guess I just need to "Snap Out Of It"... as Mary Emmerling so fondly says.
PS - Nov. 20th - OOPS! I got my Mary's mixed up. I meant Mary Englebreit (SP?), not Emmerling.